would be the 1st time doing bbq.. jus now after class went to tesco wif my friends. bought lots of stuff.. arguing here n there what i wanna eat.. had lots of fun.. i received a call from my sister on my way.. she told me my best friend pass away.. i was like fooling around n stuff n decided to call my brother.. same thing he tell me.. i dont hav the feeling to describe.. no sadness nothing at all.. all i know is that i m laughing all the way wif my friends...
went came back home, told my brother i wanna follow him to the funeral wif my sister... went there.. from far i saw my best friend picture.. start to shiver.. when i step in n look at his picture.. out of nowhere there were lots of emotion n things running through my mind.. then i start to feel My GOSH! i wanted to cry but i hold back til my face turn red.. guess thats all.. dont wanna further in or more details.. i jus calm down after having my bath.. cried til eye pain.. what can i do?? i m attending my BEST FRIEND funeral just before my 19th BIRTHDAY! they say 18 is a bad luck.. guess its true!
i really cant believe this would actually happen.. just before my birthday? why?
guess thats faith.. i dont know how m i gonna look forward on my birthday..
i will update when i m calm.. i need more time.. thanks for ur concern!
sorry for those who i kinder promise on calling u all back bout any outing n dates and i cant make it til now..sorry! i m very busy currently.. guess now i need longer time.. dont worry i m fine! i m strong to enough to overcome the fact.. its normal to hav emotion.. i will get over it.. nite^^